Somehow love studying.
Somehow the ego crushing, tiring nature of studying brings me great self-confidence and happiness.
Somehow the lack of variety and exploration is nullified by the world of learning that is between the pages.
Somehow the lack of time for frivolous enjoyment is a blessing.
Somehow the fires within my heart are put out with the pleasure of learning.
Somehow I don’t just want to study but I need to like I need sustenance.
Somehow boredom is the lack of studying.
And somehow I like all this without knowing the reason.
I now know I am addicted to study as I have done nothing but
Study is important I tell you that
but worship of God is more important than that
If everyone was into studying for God the world would be better than this
For this is what study should be not suffering for other than God